The - Pain

I am bothered by this pain that I'm experiencing on a certain part of my body.. I am definitely worried and the pain has been there for 5 days.. the pain isn't excruciating but the thought that it could be something dangerous worries me much.. so i am making my way to the polyclinic tomorrow morning.. hopefully its nothing to be worried about..

My lil monster has been missing 4 days of school.. Firstly it was the sore eyes.. Then came the viral fever.. Hopefully he gets better soon cos mummy is worried sick!

Happy 2 years 6 months baby!

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The - Letter to the husband..

Dearest ♡,
Its 3.45am and I am wide awake.. Firas woke me up at 3 to change his diaper and he wants me to cuddle him to sleep.. it hit me..
When was the last time you cuddle me in bed?
When was the last time you came to hug me?
When was the last time you initiate a date?

I had stopped my sneaky morning cuddle at your side of the bed cos you would still be too deep in your sleep that I got ignored most of the time..
I had stopped complaining abt missing your hugs and cuddles cos I hate being called a nagger..
I came to realise I became a mother to both you and Firas.. Firas gave me more hugs than you did hence I shud be thankful for that..

The - Flabbyness

So, I have people telling me how I am steadily gaining weight and truthfully I am aware of that.. Since my forte is procrastinating, I haven't been able to get my ass to go lose some fats!

Waking up early to prepare breakfast or to pack lunch is already hard.. waking up an extra hour on top of waking up early to prepare or pack my meals would be even harder lah! Aftet calculation I have to get up by 4am to squeeze in morning run and preparing meals.. that's a horrifying number don't you think?

Let's try to make it work.. btw, i drove up to Melaka this morning.. Been up since 3.30am and driving alone in the early morning and without a co. driver was extremely painful to the sleepy eyes.. had my in laws with me plus my helper so my elder monster had to ride up instead..

I don't expect any return when I sincerely made up my mind to help or do them a favour.. but a simple 'Thank you' could actually make me feel that its worth the pain of having only 2.5 hrs of sleep and waking up at 3.30am.. cos right now when the house is dead quiet, I am alone awake too tired to close my eyes..